What Makes 2020 So Terrible?
What makes 2020 so terrible? I realize you likely now think me crazy for even asking. Have I not seen all of the memes on social media about putting this year behind us? There is a global pandemic, and people have died. Why wouldn’t we want to fast forward ourselves into a future with a semblance of normalcy? I cannot argue with that. However, people die every day. Tragedy and life have walked hand in hand since our expulsion from paradise! Is it more tragic because these deaths resulted from a virus? Perhaps, we would have felt better if all of these people had died from car accidents or slipping in the shower? No?
COVID-19 doesn’t ruin 2020 for me. What has soured the year and left a bad taste in my mouth, however, is people. The way people have reacted to this amazes me. I can say that I have lost close friendships because of a lack of charity. Each of us has a worldview. That is a given. Yet, someone’s opinions should not be a reason to break off a friendship with them, unless that opinion is something egregious like pedophilia should be acceptable. Even so, these friends who thought I was taking this strain of the coronavirus too lightly acted with no lenity. I do not deny that I am outspoken. You are going to know my thoughts and feelings on any given matter. I guess the joke is on me for thinking that friendship meant knowing someone’s foibles but embracing them anyway.
And what of the election-year resurgence of the rabid social justice warrior and continued Antifa violence in 2020? I am sorry that I cannot with good conscience support a Marxist organization hiding behind a civil rights slogan (i.e., Black Lives Matter). I fail to see what changing my profile picture into a black square for a day does to help ethnic minorities. I suppose judgmental friends thought I lacked compassion for not following the herd mentality on this? It is not that I’m not “woke,” I am awake. I am not drunk on emotions. I am not motivated by what makes me feel right at the moment. I don’t think minorities are so weak they are in constant need of my protection as a, well, white knight. I am looking at the big picture. Where do these actions take us?
I’ve tried to use the disadvantage of 2020 to my advantage. I have endeavored to do more soul searching in my socially distant isolation. I’ve used all of the negativity as a motivation to “socially distance” myself from propaganda news and soul-killing social media. It is impressive how quickly the “sun comes out from behind the clouds” when you eliminate those well-poisoners from your life. No, I’m not choosing ignorance. As a former-military friend puts it, I am maintaining “situational awareness.” I take in enough information to know what is going on. That’s it. Anything beyond this creates a positive feedback loop for the negativity.
As a part of my introspection, I have sought to improve my innate talents. I have watched less television and endeavored to read more. (Manga counts as reading, correct? Ha.) I have begun writing more and trying to overcome the nagging perfectionism causing me to give up on my illustrating. Most importantly, I have been attempting to improve my spiritual walk. With all of this “free time” on my hands, I lose the excuses I have used to justify not having a better prayer life or to read the Scriptures. What good is it to zealously guard my life if it has lost its meaning? 2020 has impressed this upon me.
So, what makes 2020 so terrible to you? Is it the year, or is it some of the bad actors you’ve met because of the difficulties presented by current events? Are you just being disappointed by the provocateurs and other bad actors who, despite being in the minority, seem to have a louder voice? Has there been anything praiseworthy about having more time for introspection and family? Did a new talent materialize? Have you acquired a new skill? Maybe you mastered a recipe?
Life is fleeting. Let us not take out our exasperation upon the year 2020. Believe it or not, 2020 is innocent. Our disappointment and annoyance arise from elsewhere.
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Hi, my name is Brent. Christian. 親日. ENFP. Music lover. I've channeled my ADHD into becoming a generalist. I enjoy writing and illustrating.